Day One | #OpEleanor | Work it

Day One | #OpEleanor | Work it

This very moment marks the beginning of a November to remember. In other words, I'm on board with Megan to take part in her inspirational Operation Eleanor (#OpEleanor). A challenge designed to make the next thirty days push us all beyond our limits dictated by our haunting, personal fears.

To kick it all off, I faced a love/fear that I've spoken about here recently: re-entering the traditional work force. I posted a call on LinkedIn and one on Facebook for anyone who knows of anyone who needs someone who knows their way around administrative assistance (virtual or physical). I've gotten some response, but to be honest, it scares the living shit out of me to actually re-enter the working world. This isn't to suggest that I haven't done or loved my fair share of work over the past three plus years, but it does reflect the reality that I haven't been able to provide a stable, consistent level of income in that time.

The fear of it all lies in my feeling of defeat and failure. That I wasn't able to successfully pave my own way. For a Type-A, freebird, admittance of that failure, that defeat, is heart-wrenching. Luckily I've had the opportunity to network in ways beyond my wildest dreams by being so submerged in the world of social media, that, hopefully/fingers crossed/pretty please with a cherry on top, I've made a connection somewhere along the way in these past few years that this transition into "stable submission" will be a smooth one.

Do you even realize how big of a relief it is just to have written that down in cyber-words?! I'm significantly less afraid...okay, that's a total lie...but you believed me for a second. I think this is going to be one of those drawn out, progressive fear-conquering things.

I'll fill y'all in on things as they move along...if they move along...my mindset it totally not helping this at all. Think it, be it. Right?!

Hold me.